Matt and I have been thinking a lot lately about what's next for us.. you know, we're 23 and we still have a few more years of "fun and adventures" before we settle down right? Either way, we're not sure what it is. We really thought it was weird a year and a half ago, when God gave us this house, but now, while we totally love it.. its hard to figure out why we came here in the first place. Do most people feel like this? I mean, I don't want to leave Woodstock anytime soon.. but do you ever feel like you might be missing something God meant for you to see forever ago? Almost as if we've been too busy or something, or just maybe we're too impatient now. I assume a lot of people feel this way.. but for us, with our crazy unpredictable schedules and all our home renos.. we really don't have any time to be involved anywhere in this community, therefore we have no impact on it and it has no impact on us. I think more than anything I just want to be able to be part of a group that is growing and figuring out life together.. I'm sure there's lots of people who know what I mean!
I like to read a lot, and I generally read historical fiction these days.. and although the stories are fiction, they really open your eyes about how people used to look at life.. even just 300 years ago. What I mean is, there wasn't anywhere near the scientific knowledge that there is today.. and there for, health care what somewhat non-existent. It's weird to think that a few hundred years ago.. people didn't try and control life as much, because they simply couldn't. Lots of times people would get sick from something they could easily cure today, but had no idea what it was back then.. and that was it for them. It makes me think that people just valued life minute by minute and day by day. I often feel like as a society we've been conditioned to fear death rather then understand it or accept it.. and even as Christians we have this learned fear of what is to come. I guess I just think its sad that we miss out on this ability to just take everything a day at a time. Which leads me back to what I was saying, if we realize that we need to live in the moment because life is short.. then we wouldn't be waiting around to make an impact, we'd be out making it right?
This is my dilemma..
